How Today Was Supposed to Go
I would have been exactly 12 weeks pregnant today. I thought how great it was going to be to finally be happy about Mother's Day and to have my own reason to celebrate. I was looking forward to announcing that we were going to have a baby and also share the news about our prior losses more openly. All the dates seemed to be perfect this time around - my cycle started the day after attending the concert of my favorite band, our IUI happened on the anniversary of the day we met, 12 weeks would fall right on mother's day, our baby would be due in November adding another possible Scorpio to the mix of other important Scorpios/November births I have in my life including my husband, my mother and my grandmother, and there was a slight possibly our little one (which we now know was a girl from the genetic test results) could have been born on 11-11-11 if she decided to make an early appearance. I wish today was different. Instead we lost our baby girl and shared the news of our multiple losses during NIAW and today I am just feeling sad and conflicted about what to do next.