It's Day 3 of my self-imposed bedrest. I didn't have any bleeding for over 24 hours between Thursday afternoon and Friday evening, but last night when I inserted my evening dose of Endo.metrin there was some red blood on the tip of the applicator when I took it out. I had just started to relax yesterday after no signs of bleeding all day until that happened. Now twelve hours later with my morning dose of Endo.metrin, no traces of blood on the applicator. This is enough to drive me crazy!!! Hopeful one minute to panicked and stressed the next minute.
The physical symptoms I was experiencing earlier in this pregnancy also seem to be disappearing, but I've had weird, scary dreams the past two nights. My boobs are not really sore anymore (despite two days of the estrogen patch which the RE told me would cause a lot of breast tenderness). I'm not going to the bathroom nearly as much anymore. My fourth week of pregnancy I was going to the bathroom a ton and even had to get up once in the middle of the night every night that whole week which is very uncharacteristic for me. But, take last night for example, I went to the bathroom at 8:00 pm before inserting the Endo.metrin and then didn't go again until I woke up this morning at 7:30. I also don't get severe bouts of exhaustion like I was experiencing earlier. With Thursday's bleeding and these disappearing symptoms, I don't know what to think anymore.
What I have been lacking in physical symptoms has been replaced with creepy dreams. On Thursday night I had a dream that I was entrusted with the care of two tiny preemie twin babies. They weren't mine. I don't know who they belonged to. They were in a shoebox and were sleeping. When it came time to feed them, I couldn't find them or the shoebox they were in. I was panicked searching all over the place for them with a feeling of dread that our cat had eaten them. Turns out I found them somehow although I don't know where or how and then I woke up.
Last night I woke up heart racing and sweating after dreaming that hubby and I were about to leave to go to church (which is something we don't do in real life), I was wearing shorts (also something I don't often do in real life) and I started hemorrhaging with blood running down my legs and puddling onto the ground. Then I started vomitting blood, too, and ended up on the floor in a pool of my blood yelling for my husband to call 911. That's when I was startled awake.
My next ultrasound on Tuesday afternoon can't come soon enough.